Friday, May 28, 2010


Today is already the 14th day my mom been in the hospital. I’ve been here every day since from 9am to 8pm each day to see if there's any progress. She is still in the ICU and her status being monitored closely. Each day passes by and my mom’s condition is getting worst. All medication given to her to fight the disease seems to be not helping much. Doctors say the cancer cells are too aggressive and spreading fast. These deadly cells infect one organ to another. Before the doctors could solve an infected area another one just popped up. Now her blood counts are low and seem to have internal bleeding at times. Blood transfusion is given to stabilize her. When I see her during the visiting time, she is getting weaker and weaker. It is really depressing but I need to carry a smile whenever I see her.
I ask the doctors to do their best in getting her comfortable during her stay and I think that is the least we could do. Hope seems to be fading away as more negative issues were mentioned than good. My family members are now trying to accompany her as much as we could. Chat to her, smile to her and at times joke in front of her. What else can we do………………..

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Relief cut short

It should be a better day for my mom and family as her condition is stable. All doctors say she could be transfer from ICU to the normal ward. That was good news to us. It was almost 6pm when she was transferred to a single room. We all get to see her all day instead of the 2 hours earlier on. Mom looks better and we all praise her that she did well to recover. We chatted with mom happily together. But then later, we turn sorrow again. It all started when my mom wanted to piss. The nurse found that there was blood in the urine. Doctors were called and urine sample was test. Results show there were signs of blood clotting which needed to be cleared. To be on the safe side, mom has to be transferred back to ICU for monitoring. It was then 11.30pm. Within 4 hours she is back into that scary ICU again.

My sis and I are now outside the waiting area waiting for the condition of my mom. The waiting is real scary and seems forever…….

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Worst days of my life

For the past week has really been shocking and heartbroken for me and my family. Everything happens so quickly and now it changes everything. I’m now in the hospital because my mom has been diagnosed with gastric cancer and to make things worst it is already at stage 4. We are in great shock once we were told. My mom has no symptoms at all and she has body check up every year and all the results show my mom is in good condition. It is already the 9th day she’s been admitted. At 1st she was admitted to a hospital in Cheras but then on the 4th day she was transferred to another hospital in Bangsar which has better in expertise and equipments. Each day passes and the whole family members took turns to look after her in the ward. She is getting weaker each day. But then during the night of the 6th day, my mom has breathing difficulties and now she is in Intensive Care Unit. The cancer cells are just too aggressive as it spread to other organs very fast. These cells have now infected my mom’s liver and lungs. Then it affected the kidneys too. Everything just went from bad to worst. We could only see her during the 2 hours of visiting time each day. 2 hours in the noon and another 2 hours in the night. As the rest of the time we’re just outside the waiting area hoping that nothing bad would happen.

Now she is in stable condition but doctor say things weren’t on the bright side. Chemotherapy has been given to her hoping that it will slow down the spread. What I could do now is just sit outside the ICU waiting area and pray hard hoping things will get better. My mom has been such great person to family, friends and work. She eats healthy and lives healthy. She don’t drinks nor smoke. Why does she have to go through all this? It is just not right! My whole family tears drops when we see her getting weaker each day. Even now the tears just kept dropping down while I’m writing this. My dad has caught himself a flu now after so many days of heartache. The kids try the best to ask him to rest while we take care of mom. Dad asks us to take care of ourselves too but it is nothing compared to what my mom is going through now. Just imagine a close person lying on the bed with multiple tubes going through her. She could not drink and eat much. Through her eyes we know she is suffering and it make us very sad. Sleeping isn’t easy for her neither it is for us.

Phones have been ringing for the whole week and I would like to say sorry to those that I did not pick up. It has really been a tough week but we are not giving up hope. Please do not come to the hospital to visit her. We do not want others to disturb and affect her. If you want to help please do pray for my mom to get well and bless her to live more better days ahead. Please…….

Saturday, May 15, 2010

Thomas Cup - Malaysia lost to China

I was rather disappointed with our national players during their semi final clashes with China in the recent Thomas Cup tournament. World no. 1 Lee Chong Wei lost again to his nemesis Lin Dan. They have met each other for a total of 21 times and Lin Dan won 15 times. World no. 1 doubles player Koo Kien Keat and Tan Boon Heong also lost to China Fu Hai Feng and Cai Yun. China players seems too strong in attacking and solid in defence. Then all hope lies on veteran Wong Choong Han who then as expected lost to Chen Jin of China.

All three matches Malaysia lost in straight games. To me it is expected that Malaysia will lose but I did not expect them to lose so poorly. All three matches China won in straight games. We might have world no.1 players but yet China has the best players in the world. What does World No. 1 ranking means?

Lin Dan beat Lee Chong Wei (21-17, 21-8)

Cai Yun-Fu Hai Feng beat Koo Kien Keat-Tan Boon Heong (21-15, 21-10)

Chen Jin beat Wong Choong Han (21-16, 21-7)

Well, it is 18 years back since Malaysia lifted the Thomas Cup in 1992. Maybe I should now train my kids and bring back the cup... hahahaha.... or maybe football.

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Sick ! Sick ! Sick !

Long time did not update my blog liao so decided to write a bit of my worst days. I have fell sick for the whole week. What illness? .... I got FEVER, FLU, COUGH and SORETHROAT! It all started when I woke up one Monday morning. Started to have sorethroat but still I went to work. After a couple of hours in the office, I got myself a mild fever. Decided to head home to rest. Took some panadols pills and off I went to sleep.

Later in the evening I got a fever of 40 degrees! Tracy send me to a clinic asap. Took the medicine given and again went to sleep. Next day, the fever did not go away and came the flu and cough. Damn. Was very week the whole day and was scare it was H1N1. Went to the hospital to check again. Doctor says it wasn't H1N1. That was a bit relief. For the whole week the fever comes and goes. From 37 degrees to 39 degrees and then back to 37 degrees. Worst still is that I got to fly to China at the end of the week.

Rested for the whole week and I did go to China with Tracy. It was one of the worst business trip ever. I was still sick for the 1st few days there. As I was getting better, Tracy then suddenly fell sick! Oh my god..... She got the same fever, flu and cough. I think I had tranfers the virus to her. We we're in China for 5 days 4 nights and sadly most of the time we just rested in our hotel rooms. But we still manage to do what ever business we were there to do.

Just got back to KL last night and we're both still sick!...... sigh...... worst is Oswald and my Mom also sick!